subtle smiles

i've learned a lot about love this fall.
there's a girl i know who exudes this
"i don't need your love" persona.
but the truth is, we all want it
even if we want people to think we don't want it.
so the other day when i gave her a hug.
i saw her eyes smile.
it was super subtle but super clear.
she likes it, she likes to be loved.
and maybe she needed it - who knows.
i've seen God warm her disposition
like i never thought possible.
wow, it's really beautiful.

let's make a snow globe

let's make a snow globe
and put ourselves inside
it will be an autumn scene
it will be you and me
perhaps a couple pumpkins
and a tennis match where i win
we'll meander through the evening snow
and sip a cup of tea on the roof
we'll warm our hands by the fire
and maybe you'll kiss my cheek
whatever else may float inside
we'll bottle up this season for sure
maybe we'll put it on the mantle
and people will pass by and admire
with warm thoughts of a warm fall
we'll smile
as they shake it to see it snow

let the ravens come

so, yeah, a couple weeks ago at church, Pierced Chapel
we had this prayer labyrinth experience
it was super sweet.
there were about ten different rooms with ten different topics/themes.
it was really just incredible
because it's always incredible to be in God's presence.
in the room about "hurt" i realized i didn't have a lot to complain about
because God had healed me from pain and bitterness
in so many different ways.
in the room about "fears/worries" i realized that although the rock
i was holding in my hand was smooth and light weight,
my actual fears and worries were so heavy and inhibiting.
when i threw my rock into the water it was a huge metaphorical step of faith.
it's funny because in the same room, Jev, holding the rock in his hand
couldn't think about anything in his life to fear or worry about.
so he left the room with the rock still in his hand.
it's funny because technically i'm totally taken care of.
i really have nothing tangible and immediate to worry about.
where as, he actually might have something to worry about.
God has blessed him with perspective
which is so key.
then the other day i was reading in 1 kings
the author told how before Elijah actually started his ministry
he was just chilling in the desert
the ravens would bring meat and bread to him
and he drank from the spring.
meanwhile God was preparing a huge work for Elijah.
so, yeah, let the ravens come.