it was rich.

ahh, sweet day camp... today was one of those days where joy and sorrow were so mixed together that it's hard to describe the day using either word. at one point i thought, --wow, this is so terrible, my job is so hard and unavoidably stressful.--- and then thirty minutes later tears of gratefulness rolled down my face as i was praying for this "bad kid" who i thought i didn't like but turns out i have really grown to love him. joy is hidden in sorrow and sorrow in joy. if we try to avoid hard times at all costs, we may never taste true joy. Nouwen says that joy and sorrow are our spiritual parents, we need both to grow. i grew a bit today. it was painful and it was good. let's just say it was rich.

gloriously wasteful.

"O, Lord, art thou gloriously wasteful." ~ George McDonald

a couple of weeks ago i was on a quick road trip to Buena Vista with my new friends, Ashley and Ashley. The valley that we drove through on the way to B V never ceases to amaze me. It's one of my favorite mountain ranges on earth, the collegiate peaks and the landscape never stops speaking to me. but when we were driving away from BV we saw the most incredible sunset. and i was just thinking that it seems so harsh that sunsets are so temporal, they last only for a bit and then they're gone. and what if there were people in their houses just at that time that weren't even watching. they didn't even know and it was happening right outside their windows and it would be gone by the time we could tell them. so fleeting. so beautiful. gloriously wasteful. my friend Ashley said some things weren't meant to last forever, we need to learn to let go. the only time the infinite meets the finite is in this present moment. it's so precious. like a sunset.